happy unimaginative consumerist-oriented and entirely arbitrary, manipulative and shallow interpretation of romance day.

I hate it, cause i already know i miss it.

Why do people smile when no ones smiling?
its 'cause, they're thinking of someone they are lovin'

siiigghh..

Ive got the sweetest love, there aint nothing sweeter, yeah i wish.
So valentines day has been such a downer, i tried my best to pretend its just " any other day " and ignore all the loveydovey stuff they were advertising on the tv, even shows were themed and had valentine's day special episodes .. but on the other note the hardest to ignore were random slowjams, especially when i turned on the radio and i hear my boo - usher ft alicia keys / what a killer ) ' : .. While that song was playing, i thought to myself : what if i wasn't alone on valentines day ? what if i had " company " any boy .. would i still feel this way ? honestly, that made me studdaa' with an a cause right there, and then i knew.. it still wouldnt feel "right" and i would still be complaining, it still wouldn't give me the feel good feeling of "content", "satisfaction 'cause im smiling so big and so hard", "love, loving the feeling of your arms around me" and "those stupid butterflies that feel so damn good" because it wasn't you, it was just another boy, not the boy i was " so into " - or maybe, just maybe all the OC episodes that ive seen today are just messin' with my head...
But then again, i want it/you but dont want it/you at the same time, i love the feeling you give me, the flirting, the cute moments between you and me etc. etc..but i dont want to be tied down to a relationship, i just wanted to know if you liked me like if i meant something, that you weren't there just for the "chase " .. like "MU" mutual understanding.. 'cause when other girls come 'round.. i get jealous? yeah kay, there's something wrong with me..

Dear cupid,

Please stop shooting me with your arrows in the ass, i would highly appreciate it.. and next valentines day, i would like to have a date with ADAM BRODY, please and thank you.

xox. RT

On a completely different topic : So.. my bestfriend and i got into a fight/arguement, well actually he was the one bitching out, cause some random guy asked for my number.. yeah..

" You just dont know how some people are. You might get yourself into something that you may not be able to control. Just cus you left yourself open and vulnerable. Just dont let it ever happen that you're not in control of the situation. Cus if you arent and shit happens to you ! I swear ill get everyone with me to fuck shit up. I just honestly cant stand when guys try and take control and shit and fuck hypebeasts. Personally stab them.. "

Babe, i love you for all that you are even though you " PMS " worse than any girl i know. I wouldnt know what to do without you even though i dont listen / follow to half the ideas, statements, future predictions you are telling me but of course, i still take things into consideration and in the end you always end up owning me cause you're right.