somewhere along the way, everything fell in place.

"Why you smiling so big and so much? .. So happy!"
"... haha I dont know?!"
"Omg Rizzy haha, you're crazy!"
"Stop smiling"
"I can't, I dont know why! I think I'm going crazy.."

I don't expect me to feel this way. I remember telling myself "Boys are boys, don't ever get attached", but I guess tables have turned and I'm a hypocrite. Officially, yeah.. I think I am. Crazy - "crazy for you" .. what a cliche. I feel like a helium balloon, always floating never grounded. In the mean time let me say what's on my mind, it's crazy how you lift my feet off the ground, spin me around, make me so frustrated to the point where I can be so mad at you, but yet you still manage to steal my heart and knock me down, while you bring me up, make me stutter while free falling through my thoughts and emotions that leave me so unglued, completely melting from the sweet words you express that leave this memorable, un-erasable mark, knowing that nobody can ever make me feel the way you do and without any hesitations...make me just fall for you...over and over and over again without even having to say anything, cause I know. I'll admit it. I feel at my best when I'm with you. I can't believe it ...the slightest thought of you makes me smile to the point where I just can't stop, and I know my cheeks hurt, but that doesn't stop it, I need to stop - I'm not suppose to feel this way, it feels unnatural? Is it even healthy to even feel this way? .... and when I say "feel this way", I don't even know where to start on how to explain it 'cause I don't even understand what I'm trying to get at. It's been asked and all I can do is question myself? - Why am I like this? How did it get to this point? Why can't I complete my damn sentences? ... Rizzy what's wrong with you?! - Yes, someday.. hopefully soon ...I hope to find the perfect combination of words to explain how I hate, at the same time, love how wonderful you make me feel and just tell the whole world why I'm so untacked, impassioned, infatuated etc. I guess I'll try it? it ranges from screaming to the top of my lungs while jumping up and down, doing a crazy dance to hugging everyone and anyone around me, so happy that I just want to let everybody know and that's all just to explain a small percent of how you leave me after each phone call (: