this feelin' that i have right here - baby, stronger than the day before

L.I.S.T.E.N - " think it's time to keep it real and let you know how i feel bout' you baby - love it when you're here with me .... " Starting off the day with blu and exile's first things first, then figuring out that no one could ever do it like alicia keys to guide me through my teenage love affair that left the night with a sudden rush of an on going streak of darien brockington's sweet words leaving me with my i need you's, following up with wishing if we can we fall inlove again leading to the fact that "I'm simply just going crazy" and finally ending the night with babe, can we settle down? - tell me, what will it take?

Hi. You might be reading this and I must say, you are ... just.. simply...wonderful...right now. You always bug me bout how I feel about you, all the things.... and just how you put it out there can't help but make me feel so ... giddy, but all that makes me wonder - Wonder if I ever make you feel the same fuzzy feelings that leave me over the edge type of buterflies that you make me feel? - I know, thats a crazy thought, but you can't blame a girl for wondering. The little things you do, even though they're so.. sooo lame, leave me smiling for hours and reading lines like "I wish we could do this everyday" really did it that night, I tried my best to hide the fact that there was the biggest smile bout ready to start forming on my face, so I bit my cheek and crossed my fingers hoping that it would help ...but sadly my cheeks were hurting from the strain they were in from stopping the smile from bursting out - While all that was happening all I could think to myself was "i hope my face isn't flushed pink and... I hope I don't look like a fag" - but I couldn't help it and admitted defeat, so I smiled. On my way out the door and ending the night with hugs wanting me to pause time for at least 5 more min and maybe after that another 10.. or 15.. haha :$, wishing that I didn't have to let go ...and finally ending it with a .... .. left me with just one thing to say - I wish we could do that everyday.

The long weekend is officially done. I miss it already, just because I had a terrific time pampering myself. This weeked was all about me, myself and I - I know that sounds a little selfish but I really wanted some "alone" time cause every weekend I end up going out and doing whatever with whoever. Realizing what I had to realize was very exhausting, never knew that it can take up to hours and hours ... and days.. to figure things out, especially trying to figure out how to remember to take my allergy pills because of the stupid pollen flying everywhere. Anyway, on the other note. Yesterday was jan's birthday! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! YOURE OFFICIALLY 16 !!) I made this really sweet ass card for him, but i forgot to give it to him... so I guess that's going to have to wait till ;) ... more about that later..