feeling a little blue.

" did you think i didn`t need you here, to hold my hand, to dry my tears,
did you even miss me through the time at all .. "

sometimes people haven`t actually left you.. it`s more of a mental thing,
its more of a compassionate thing, like when you know there`s someone
there to catch you, and then there`s having someone who will catch you but
you still dont know for sure, there`s also that trust issue, and what is the
most horrible thing of all, is when you trusted someone soo much, but then
randomly all of the sudden it changed and you have absolutly no idea why ..
and you loose that trust, and then you`re left with all the " i wonder`s .. " and
believe me i`ve spent days trying to figure out what changed, what was different,
and i could say it was you.. but i know that would be a lie, it takes two to tango
but again with the trust, after you`ve trusted someone so much and then it
disappears on you, it`s kind of hard to gain it back, it`s hard to open up
to a person again, it`s hard to let people back in..