"Everything is cool when love is all brand new cause you're learning me and I'm learning you.."
Selfish. Bitter. The two words that define me at this moment. Lately it seems like im never satisfied with whatever is going on with my life. Recent events that have happened have been either just really good or just plain horrible, never in the middle.. why is that?. Maybe its cus' ive been so selfish with all the really good things that have / has been happening, taking them for granted and all .. that leads to all the unfortunate things that all went down these past two weeks. I cant complain, even though that's what im doing right now - I hate this. I hate being bitter. I don't meant to but i cant help it, its hard cause im always filled with thoughts and feelings that never give me straight answers to keep myself sane. Oh well.. " better in time " right? ..

People always on a search tryna' find that one, but it's funny how they may not recognize it when it finally comes - think it's at the mall or it's sippin' at the bar. All these dates and phone conversations we doing it all for what? - when your Mr. Right it's always Mr. Wrong -but I never stop to notice you where there all along. Now it's all clear to me and that's why - I just wanna leave sometimes ..but I can't -I try and deny it but my mind / my heart finds a reason for me to come back. The simplest things you do make me smile. You just being there makes me smile. Even typing this is making me smile. I'm not going to question it cus' that just makes me unsure of myself - i know what's up, i know what im feelin' and i don't want to be shady about it. There have been questions though - what? how? when? where? .. just those one word questions that are hella hard to answer.