see you met me at an interesting time - i cant see em comin' down my eyes so i gotta make this song cry.

Problem of the day : Donnel has my phone, and i feel like crying... I actually feel so lost without my berry. No BBM. No texting. No phone calls.. sigh.. ):

Face the facts : The only one that I wanted to stay is the only one leaving.

Problematic. Reading donnel's "Type HeartBreak" really got to me - especially the line "it's that dialing their number on your phone and leaving your finger on top of the call button type heartbreak". All i could say was "yo thats tight".. right donnel?. Truth is, i really don't know what's up anymore cus' all this time i've just been pretending to myself that i do know whats going on and how i feel and what i want and what i need and just brushing off the fact that i am actually so confused and can't possibly think of any solution even if i tried to crack my head open and pour out everything thats in my mind. I was supposed to be satisfied, content, happy, problem free .. i deserve to be right? but it seems like that's not the story for me. The more i think about it the more i feel like more problems get piled up into these situations and that the problem gets bigger and bigger and everytime i rehearse my lines of what im going to say to you, i look back and think and the only thought that gets to me is that it gets stupider each time i try and figure words that would fit into this perfect sentence i'm trying to so call "rehearse". Lets be real here - I'm actually tired of trying to fix things, trying to put everything back together to what it was. Right now it seems like all this work is leading into absolutly nothing and it gets tiring cus' i know im trying, and i know what i don't want to lose, but it doesnt seem like you even give a damn bout it. I don't ever want you to fade away but it seems like thats all you want to do and on top of that ..you call things on me that are hella unfair cause i know that those are the last things i would want to do to you but you're not going to believe me, even when im trying to prove to you that you mean the most. - Im just going to leave it there. Theres so much to say but im out of breath, out of words. "I'll just talk to you whenever"