What are we doing? What is this? Is it a game? Are these feelings? Or are we here just to finish up some unfinished buisness? I just don't know. There are so many things running through my head, so many feelings running through my heart. There's so much that needs to be said. Not just from me, but from you too. When I speak/hear of you, I get lost in memories. It was something that I couldn't see. But look at me now, I'm doing swell? Not bad? I'm handling myself. Right when I get to the point where I'm content with everything, content with the situation. Content with the fact that all the heavy weight of words/sentences/phrases/moments etc. are off my shoulders and the fact that I've been moving forward with such great phase, here you come stuttering by. In some ways I really don't mind it cause I can just absorb it all in without any big disturbance in my peace of mind but ... I have to start back over. Not completely, but still start over. I re-trace a few of my steps, here and there, that took me a while to make. This is most definitely going down on my list as one of the hardest things I'm going to overcome. I am trying. Really. I am. But I can't help let one tear fall at an unfair call. But this is what it is. Nothing more. Nothing less. I wish you could see my heart, mind and soul. Maybe then you'll understand that this isn't a game. This isn't something that will go away.
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