she was a serial monogamist at heart.

This summer has been hell to my emotions. Im not trying to sound selfish but, I do know I deserve better from you... you, and you. I'm tired of wasting my feelings on people who dont deserve it. Its time to surround myself with people that actually matter. So I examined my emotions. I was expecting to feel relieved, even a little jubilant. But I really didn't. I felt horrible. But, I reminded myself, this was my first step on the road to respectability, and everyone knows that the first step is always the hardest.

Thats why it hurts.

Not because I just thrown away the best thing that had ever happened to me.......nat