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Here's to you,
Bay you're so good in my books but we're always so on and off - We have these long cute ass twenty fo' seven conversations that go on for weeks but then after all the highs, we also have those huge ass gaps of silence cause shit happens. Honestly though, when we first met, I didn’t want to get involved with anyone. I didn’t have the time or the energy, and I wasn’t sure I was ready for it. But you were so so good to me, and little by little, I found myself falling for you. Hopefully the story's bound to finish ....this time.

You..
I say "always" and you say "forever", but is the story really like that? We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other, but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality, it tears apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps up running back for more. You've got me thinking more than three times a day about this situation - Is it really worth it?

.....And you
We just stare at each other or give quick glances as if that is enough - It used to be enough. I just feel as though now we can’t patch things up. We both don’t know what to say, and too bad, because we both need to explain this in words today. It’s not fair because I’m not allowed to miss you. You don’t miss me so I can’t miss you. Yet I do – I miss you so much (in that best friend kind of way), that I know with all my heart. I wish I could just press rewind and replay the time we spent together. I miss your smile, your laugh, I miss the sound of your voice calling my name. (haha that all sounds so cheesy but it's not meant to be). I understand why it had to end this way, but I am still far from accepting the fact that it ended the way it did - in such a crude way. And honestly, it’s getting so much easier to pretend that you don’t exist. With every day that passes, the easier it gets to look at you and pretend like you never were a big part of my life as you were. You came, you stayed for awhile and then you left, just like that. It’s all right now. I am no longer bitter. I simply wish you the best.