you're the one that i'm missing here

A heart to heart conversation with the best friend really made me question myself. I haven't done this in a while and I really hope questions like "these" wouldn't come around finals hitting me from every corner and slowly but surely, I know this will break me down....sooner or later. I wish I had it my way all the time...ha.

"so...do you know what you want?"
"um....yeah? I guess.. well, I think I do"
"okay... what is it then?"
"him, and this and that, but I'm not entirely sure what "this" and "that" is..."
"haha okay, me too...I don't either"
"so what do we do now?"
"uhhhhhh...nothing! we're independent bitches"

I came to the conclusion that I dont know what I want, so dont ask me cause I'm still trying to figure it out. Dont know whats down this road, I'm just walking....and hoping that I am going the right way and I want to go the full way there even if it's going to kill me with words like "waiting" and "patience" but I'd rather have it like that than taking shortcuts that just screw things over because just in case that "right turn" I took at the very start was really wrong... and I'm back to where I started. Lost.