12:54 am

Everyone seems to be talking about it and it feels like everyone seems to figure it out except me? Is it that complex for me to figure out or are the answers right in front of my face and I'm just staring right through them? - I simply just don't understand anymore. They say when situations like these come across ...there's always a certain point where you have to make a choice, whether if you're going to put yourself out there to take a risk or just that one last chance, or you're just going to bite your tongue, and shove all your feelings in a box and throw away the key.. - I guess you're never really going to know until everything eventually pieces up together and when you finally know how everything is suppose to fit maybe, thats when you'll figure out why you were such in a conundrum. 

Its not that I cant make up my mind. Its not that I don't know what I want cus' i do - It's because, this time.. I'm actually thinking about how I feel, and how I feel so vulnerable.. like anytime I can get hurt. I don't know if I'm over analyzing things or just not seeing what I'm suppose to see or feel. All I know is I'm scared to say how I feel. I'm scared cus' I'm starting to feel it again, I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, cause it feels so good but you make me miss you so much, you make me miss "it" so much. I'm not trying to be complicated. I don't want to be complicated. I don't even want to think anymore, I just want to feel - like having the feeling when I'm in your arms cause all I can pretty much do is smile but I don't even know why... - like feelings that you try so hard to explain and put into words, but you just simply cant. Then again, other thoughts do come into mind - Is it always just going to be like this? "re-runs"? Not knowing what's this "thing" is going to be called? Whether to call you mine? If I'm suppose to be jealous when other girls come in? Is it okay to miss you this much? etc .. - I don't have an excuse to hug you anytime I want, or whether to let go or not, before I did, now I don't..