Something about the combination of all those words put into one simple sentence really got to me. It's not because I've come to a conclusion that there's a part in my life that I have to give up on it's because all my life, I've never been the type to give up on something, someone or quite frankly anything.
And that's when all the feelings, flashbacks and pretty much everything I've been hoping to not come across for a while came rushing in.
Every Thanksgiving, I write a letter to someone. One I send, and one that I don't send. This year, I sent one across the world and the other, I sealed and stored safely in a box. If you're guessing that this entry is mostly about the letter that I didn't send - well you're quite right. This letter I wrote was raw, raw as in I didn't even read it to see if I had any spelling mistakes or grammar errors kind of raw. It's one of those letters where I just kept writing and writing and writing and just couldn't stop. It does start off a little bit bitter, a lot of honesty….too much honesty but it ends with how I've never been so thankful for one of the sweetest part of my life, but I'm ready. I'm ready to make the sweetest part of my life, not a part of my life. It's not because that there came a point where it all became too much, and I got too tired to fight, so I'm giving up. No. It's because there's not enough reason for me to stay right now, and there aren't anymore fights to argue about. So I'm giving us a chance, to really figure it out because if we're always so caught up in the midst of it all - how are we ever going to see the bigger picture?
I believe in us and most of all I believe in you, and like you promised. We'll be fine through it all. Because it's good that we're always too much for each other. The way we always fight for each other, and how we're both never going to give up on each other.
But for now, I'm going to have to write about a different story.
Like always,
Love always,
-R
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