"When life is sweet say thank you and celebrate, when life is bitter say thank you and grow."

When I look back a year back from now, roughly around the same date - I hate to say it, but I was exactly where I was now.

Lost and wondering "how and why I'm here again" - because I remember putting it all away, throwing away the key and for good reason. It was so I'd never find myself here again. But here I am again and I'm not quite sure if it says something about my character or if it's just faith and chance telling me something or maybe nothing.

All my life I've lived and breathed to be a hopeless romantic - I wouldn't be surprised if I was a damsel in distress locked up in a tower waiting for prince charming to come and save me from the fiery dragon. I love things like that - I love things that scream out "meant to be", I love things that show how stars align and that's the reason why you are where you are in life.

I also believe in signs, like how one day a song plays - like one of those songs that hasn't been on the radio since circa 2001. Yeah those kinds of songs, and it just happens to be one of those particular songs you've erased from your memory because it brings up a whole whack of "I've spent so much time trying to forget you" feelings. And that's the beauty of it all, never knowing where things can take you. One day you're trying to forget that one guy who broke your heart to finding yourself falling in love with someone who you've known all along.

It's crazy that things secretly linger to a safe hiding spots and come back out of no where - like they have something more to offer than just a flashback. I think it's a lesson that you never really did finish learning, it's some kind of unfinished story that needs a proper ending that never happened or maybe, there's a reason why you needed to take a step away from whatever it was in order for you to really figure out if it really did need an ending. Things start and eventually end in order for other things to start but one day, you'll find some great reason to stay - even if it took days, months, years to really figure it out.

Someday, I too hope find some great reason to stay.
-R