consistency

I'm so tired of dancing around the fact that I'm so love sick. Damn those romantic ass couples I see everywhere cause all it leads me to are my undying, endless questions. I'm needin' a little soul searchin' cause I've been wondering around the empty hallways of my exhausted feelings for a while now. I've been searching and trying to open locked doors that I think might have the answer to most of my questions, but life really doesn't work out that way. It's just not that easy but I cant help but stay in this position, its like I'm stuck here ...thoughtless (sortve). Feels like I've been blinded and floating in position for a while. I honestly thought that I was completely over and done with all of this, then out of no where.... like usual, it hits me - like a ton of bricks. You can say that it happened just like every other time. The difference - it was a different place, different people, different words. I thought a different me but still the same outcome, atmosphere, feelings. Love you're simply too cruel. I can't deal with insensitivity and the cutting jokes. I can't deal with the degrading behavior you're so trapped in, but our story is so indestructible because my love story with this prince charming so called "love" - it's unfinished.